7.22.2017

MUSINGS|| I'VE BEEN REDUCED TO LOVE

7.22.2017
Five years later she thought she had gotten rid of what she termed "weakness". It just went deep, deeper than she expected.
Books said "be strong", mama said "never let a man know you love him more than he loves you" and girlfriends recount how amazing boo has been right from day 1.

Experience said, "surely he too might pack up and leave"

So committment becomes scary.

She tried so hard to keep it all together, be the woman who adds value, demands little and expects less.... that way she can stay intact and sane.


She does not mind giving everything but giving her weakness is hard.

What is this weakness?

It is to let another know they mean a lot to her.
It is letting down every guard and loving regardless of the outcome.
It is saying "I love you" a million times a day because that is exactly the truth.
It is letting him know that she's afraid of the future, afraid of the unknown and still feel safe.

But how can he know of he's not told?
Who says "they are all the same" and because Mr A did this Mr B will do same.

She thought she had lost touch with tears and pain untill she denied him access to her inner chambers,locked her gates with fear.

"Open up the ancient gates, and let the king of glory enter in. Who is this king of glory?  He is the LORD strong and mighty. "

These creatures have hearts, you know?
They feel and truly care. They also want to know they are wanted. To know that they are choosen and loved.

He said;  "I don't want perfection, just give it to me the way you want to"

Yet all she wanted is to be perfect for him and at the slightest sense of imperfection she went to hide.

Dump it girl!  You will never win fighting yourself.

You can't fight love, it leaks!
What is yours will stay, no matter what happens but while you still have the opportunity accept that vulnerability and love go hand in hand.

Others abused it, but you survived....
He deserves to know that the fears you feel you can trust him with it.

One step at a time!
It's okay to share, it's okay to be open because in trying to hold unto your heart it'll crumble right before your eyes. Broken is good, the content flows freely at this state but after mending has been done - flow is a bit regulated.

You have so much to live for but you just can't make impact if you don't have love..... it is what every human being desire and craves for.
No matter how tough a person might be, love conquers it all.

I LOVE YOU CHUKWUNOMSO!!! 💕💕

P:S Use the comment section to give a shoutout to the people you love, let it out and free up space for more beauty to fill you up.
Love you guys! 

6 comments:

  1. Wonderful thoughts that hold true indeed, those we love we should let them know each and every single day, as life is short. Thanks for the reminder, and warm greetings!

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    1. Its my pleasure.
      Warm regards 💕

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  2. After all said and done...

    Please who is CHUKWUNOMSO oooo

    Lol

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